Sobz.... i wish u were mine..... sobz...... had a great day with u... im glad u love the watch.... everything brings back soo much memories... just now..when we were pushing the money on the cab... i got hold of ur hand... can u feel how much i wanted to hold u? sobz.... i didnt went home..... i went to wet myself in the rain.... i walk along the street... in the rain... sobz... and i teared..... i find it soo heartbreaking... why? wh
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y god why? why must let us only be remembered for the love we gave? why? sobz... i broke dwn.... i miss u soo much.... just soo much... i wanted to give u a hug actually.. but i didnt... i sat downstairs my house with the rain pouring dwn on me... i thought of those happy moments when we were together... i thought of those goodbye kisses whenever each of us leave the cab.... when we are on escalator.. we would held each other... when we are walking on the street.. you would place your arm on my shoulders...when we were on cab.. i would sit in the middle to put my arms around you... when we watch movie.. i would held your hands... even when u feel cold.. u would hug me.... sobz.. but now.. all no more le... tears... i dunno why my heart felt like its bleeding... i listen to 彩虹 all the way just now... placing it in the OG plastic bag.. i miss u..... sobz... i wish all these never happen at all... i wish we were the same as before.... it hurts me soo much to feel that you belong to someone else... sobz... why do i feel soo heartache? why? looking at those photos we once took..we were soo happy dear... soo happy together... 1 yr ago... 2 yrs ago...3 yrs ago... this day... we were soo happy together ah dear... why this year.. this day... we are like tat... Tears... heartaches... my heart soo pain!!!! sob!!! SOMEBODY!!!! MAKE ME HEAL.....tears... Time will heal my pain right? time will make everything heal right? Sobz.. why can't you just wait for me.....like how i ever waited for you...Sigh.... heartaches... AH DEAR.... SOBZ.... AH DEAR..... I MISSSSS YOU AH DEAR....I MISS CALLING YOU AH DEAR.... I MISS HUGGING YOU AH DEAR...I MISS EVERYTHING WE EVER DID BEFORE AH DEAR.... I MISS GIVING YOU MY LOVE AH DEAR... SOBZ......WHY YOU DON'T LOVE ME LE....WHY? Sobz... i wish all these really never happen.... i wish i am not aching like how i am now at all..... because ah dear... you know... really very very very Painful....very painful.... ppl ask me.. where is my heart... i told them.. my heart had drop the day when you left me... they ask me... where is mrs teo.... i say mrs teo is no longer here anymore... SObz... WHY.... WHY ARE THERE SOOO MANY WHY......I felt soo sad...tears cun seem to stop flowling... ah dear....... ah dear....... i wish you were mine..... i wish you were mine......sobz......tearsssssssssssi wanna be heal.... i wish i could be healed.... Sigh... i place my hand on your photo just now... and i could feel you... tears... ah dear... why last time whenever i call u ah dear... i can hear ur respond de... but now... i no longer hear your respond anymore... all i hear is me myself calling u ah dear....... AH DEAR!!!! TEARS.... AH DEAR!!!!!!!!!! CAN U HEAR ME? SOBZ... HEARTACHESS....EUGENE TEO!!!dun like tat... dun..... sobz... my wound is sooo deep.... i guess im hurt deeply.... i ever told you right? i say i will become someone diff and someone i dunno if u ever leave me... i guess i am that person now... my career first right? Sobz... ppl say...if i see u happy i must be happy... i told them say.. i know... i want you to be happy... isnt this what we always will say after a broke r/s for us bung? sobz... ah dear... i really just want you to be happy... although now.. i can no longer be there for you.... but i just want you to know that you are a girl that have taken away all the love i can give to anyone else... i have gave you everything i could le... nothing left le ah dear... nothing anymore..... its empty...my heart is empty le.....sobz.... i feel like saying i love you again... sobz.. i dun even feel like ending this blog post... cos i feel like saying soo much to you.. cos i know.. only you will read.. and only here.. i can tell you how much i feel... i dun expect your reaction.. cos i can feel tat.. you patch with him le ba... i dunno... but just let me pour what i have inside me can? can ah dear? sobz.... cos really very pain dear.. tears... soo pain..... if u were here.... i guess u can see how much i am in pain... my tears really cun stop flowing... so hard to stop.. esp..when i call out ah dear.. and when i look at our photos..sobz.. i told told myself once again just now.. i say if i really know tat time is the last time i could held u.... I REALLY WON'T LET YOU GO......TEARS FALL.... I WON'T LET YOU GO YOU KNOW.....HEARTACHES.. I never see myself like tat before... i wish i could turn back the hands of time... i never give anyone soo much love before... i never love someone like tat even..i keep looking at those previous msg we sent to each other.. i save it all into the folder of out photos in my com.... and i realize i always tell you.... Ah dear... i love you more than anything else in this world... and i find it soo true... because even until now... i still love you more than anything else in this world.. SOBS.. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
WHY!!!!!!!!! WHY MAKE ME GO THROUGH ALL THESE...... I HATE MY EMOTIONS... I HATE TO FEEL LIKE THIS... i bought a new comforter.. but its soo empty without you sleeping beside me... Sobz.. i dunno who can heal me... i dunno which gal is gonna enter my life now...ppl often say when a door closes.. another opens... but i cun be healed...and i dunno when will i be healed... because my love is all with u le.... i love u soo much ah dear... just soo much... why u must let me down? u say u wun de ah dear... u wun let me dwn de.. why let me dwn now? heartaches.. is all these true? that you are no longer mine anymore? sobz... i dream of you...always... in the dream we are all soo sweet together.. laopo.... wo hao xiang ni..... wo hao xiang hao xiang ni...... Sigh.... i have to stop here le... because i know i will go on and on if i dun stop... its just like me... i will give you my love.. on and on... until one day... you ask me to stop... remember? i told you this before when u cry on me? SObz... good night ah dear.... sweet dreams... must take very good care of urself...
as long as you are happy...... its enough for me le.... just let me pour out what is in me when im emotional can le... i hope i will be healed soon.....
I MISS YOU........
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I LOVE YOU........
Heartaches....let time heal my soul.....just let time flow....Tears...
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