Just finish one artwork... another 2 more to go for the night... I dunno why.. i dunno how to react just now...i felt sad..why? sigh...why didnt you reply me? u fall asleep? or you just dunno what to say to me....Sigh... Am i too harsh on the first reply? Im sorry... i dunno why i react like that as well... it just came out... Your birthday is coming.... i wanted to celebrate with you...... but i dunno if i still have the chance to.... remember? we say that we will celebrate all our birthday and anniversary together? Sigh.... heartaches.. i delete alot of msg that i wanted to send you just now... i type soo many... like... can i ask u a favor... will you let me celebrate your birthday with you even if its the last time? Sigh... i miss you......I wanna held you tight soo much... i wanna remember again how was the feeling....Sigh... im sorry to make you cry..... i dunno why... im feeling like this... everytime when i thought of you... my heartaches somehow... today adrian ask me why do i still feel this way.... i told him say...:Because...."I STILL LOVE YOU...." gonna 4 yrs together le... how can i forget a r/s soo fast? if i tell ppl say i dun love you....i know i would be lying... if i tell ppl say i dun miss you at all.... i would be lying too... Heartaches..
You know... We are indeed a perfect couple.... its just that we are not in the perfect situation....i ask mummy.... mummy.. if kareen ever come back.. will u treat her the same? she smile and said to me... kareen is a very good gal.... as long as i am happy.... she will too... but sometimes... what has to go.. has to go.....
Bro told me once.... he say do u know why u lost? i said why? he said to me... we lost because we are poor.... and that impact me.... i told myself i wanna earn more money in the future... i wanna have a good career... and ofcos.. i cun let my family dwn as well... dad is leaving tommor... i would be one of them to support this family.... just gave mum 500 bucks this month... she's touched.. and teared... i told her say.. if i earn more.. i will give her more... if i earn less... then i will give her less... she teared and said its alright... she understand... I need to be strong... i told myself when u left me.. although im back to square one.. i have to stand up for myself.. orelse no one is able to help me at all.. SIGH....
Suddenly the image of me crying out loud to the sea is in my mind.... i cried soo hard u know.. just soo hard... i cry for hours standing there.... and i remember i msg u n say i wanna meet u... but u still didnt wanna meet me after all... Sigh... why? why can't u just let me see u even if its for the last time? Sobz...
I'm sorry that you have to read my blog and cry everytime... Sobz... my heartaches when u cry.... i wanted so much to wipe off those tears falling dwn ur face... but now all i can do is to tell you what i wanna do for you in words...
You rest well ok? Dun think soo much.....
As long as you are happy.... its my happiness as well dear.....Sobz....
Good Night....
I shall go continue with the rest of the art work le... Sweet dreams my dear.... Hugs Pats... maybe for tonight... Just imagine me being beside u ba.... just for tonight.... i wish i am right there beside u hugging u... and patting u to dream land.... Night my love....rest.... u need to rest.....
You know... We are indeed a perfect couple.... its just that we are not in the perfect situation....i ask mummy.... mummy.. if kareen ever come back.. will u treat her the same? she smile and said to me... kareen is a very good gal.... as long as i am happy.... she will too... but sometimes... what has to go.. has to go.....
Bro told me once.... he say do u know why u lost? i said why? he said to me... we lost because we are poor.... and that impact me.... i told myself i wanna earn more money in the future... i wanna have a good career... and ofcos.. i cun let my family dwn as well... dad is leaving tommor... i would be one of them to support this family.... just gave mum 500 bucks this month... she's touched.. and teared... i told her say.. if i earn more.. i will give her more... if i earn less... then i will give her less... she teared and said its alright... she understand... I need to be strong... i told myself when u left me.. although im back to square one.. i have to stand up for myself.. orelse no one is able to help me at all.. SIGH....
Suddenly the image of me crying out loud to the sea is in my mind.... i cried soo hard u know.. just soo hard... i cry for hours standing there.... and i remember i msg u n say i wanna meet u... but u still didnt wanna meet me after all... Sigh... why? why can't u just let me see u even if its for the last time? Sobz...
I'm sorry that you have to read my blog and cry everytime... Sobz... my heartaches when u cry.... i wanted so much to wipe off those tears falling dwn ur face... but now all i can do is to tell you what i wanna do for you in words...
You rest well ok? Dun think soo much.....
As long as you are happy.... its my happiness as well dear.....Sobz....
Good Night....
I shall go continue with the rest of the art work le... Sweet dreams my dear.... Hugs Pats... maybe for tonight... Just imagine me being beside u ba.... just for tonight.... i wish i am right there beside u hugging u... and patting u to dream land.... Night my love....rest.... u need to rest.....