You said im the only one who can tolerate all your nonsense...u said i was the only one tat could make u soo happy n stuff...sigh....am i really the one?u told me not to leave u even if u treat me tat way..u told me u love me soo much...sigh..den why all these arguements..u ask me not to ask u weather u still love me etc..but how can i stop thinking when u gave me such cold shoulders? come in think of it....i did tolerate alot..sigh..i wanted soo much to keep this r/s tat i start to changed...i change soo much for the sake of us...to keep this r/s going well..the way we wanted.u did change for us too..i know...but why is always my fault...why?why are u always soo piss whenever things happen...n why do u keep giving me cold shoulders...its soo freaking cold tat i hate it...i hate it soo much...but wat can i do....can u change this habit for me? can u dun treat me tat cold anymore?sigh..im afriad one day i couldnt take it anymore...sigh..i know there were times when i let u dwn..when i make u sad n etc..but didnt i try to make it up tp u after tat? im not trying to say who is in fault now...its just...sigh..its not suppose to be this way...dear..u said i cun be bothered about u...ask urself did u bother about me too..im freaking stress with my projects..im freaking stres with my essay n all...did i even bother u..ask to to help me with myessay n stuff? help me edit n etc...because i know u have ur own job prob...tats why i dun wanna give u more stress..when u were with ur friends..im glad because atleast when im not around with u...u have ur friends to accomapny u...n did i even ask u not to meet ur friends n come n meet me? i didnt lo...u were free to go anywhere u wan..but what about me? when im soo stress with my work..didnt sleep for soo many nights..did u even call me at night for a short chat? to ask me how am i n stuff?or did u just say u were tired u need to slp? den must i think u were a bad gf? i didnt...although im dissapointed..but i didnt show to u...i didnt even mention a word.sigh..yesterday because of a freaking supper...i got all these from u...am i such a bad gf to u? am i really tat bad? sigh...i have gave u everything i could..n im still continuing to give u everything i can...even more..dear..there is something call..give n take..u knw? i cun be always the one saying sorry n stuff...i knwo wat ever things i say now its still my fault...my fault of going to supper n not bother about u..about ur job n stuff...but tat wasnt wat u think...i care soo much..i care soo much about u...i dun mind saying sorry...but i need u to understand me on my behalf as well...all u did was giving me cold shoulders which i hate it soo much...dear...dun be soo crule to me...think of how i would feel first can? hai..if i know such arguments would come today...i wouldnt have gone to supper yesterday.but..wat can i say now.. seriously i didnt even go to see gays...its just supper at the near by coffee shop...i told u i had abit for my dinner only right? sigh...kareen tan..when wil u understand my feeling....can u dun treat me soo cold anymore...i seriously dun like it..i really hope we could sort things out...sigh...u know i love u v much..but im afriad one day i'll get tired for how u treat me...those cold shoulders n stuff..i seriously hate it..i hope u get well soon...even when im loaded with projects...fortuantely...i got sth for u for our 1 yr ani...i hope it means sth to u...sigh...-sob- take v good care my baby...i love u...i love u soo much..
