Depressed....how depressing is this.....she didnt contact me....for the whole day...not even a msg.....nth at all....after drinking last night, i got drunk....but still i woke up in the middle of the night to see weather she did call me or msg me.....but all i got was a plain sheet of wall paper....she dun love me anymore.....she no longer love me le......sob......i didnt msg her...but still she wun msg me.....why izzit always like tat? why am i always the one making the first move? when i didnt do anything wrg at all.....im sad....im fucking sad.....i think im going down....there is no one beside me anymore.....no one care about me anymore....weather is live or dead......im just nobody from now.....she hurt me.....she hurt me badly......i thought of soo much..just soo much....thought of all the things i did for her....thought of hw i treasure this r/s...etc...but im afriad its hard to keep it le....can i keep this r/s? i ask myself........im starting to realise tat i might be irritating her n etc.....i felt like MIA.....but i knw...i miss her....why izzit always like tat? why cun a gal treasure me...when i gave her sooo much of my love.......sob...i knw my heart aches sooo much right now....i wanna cry...cry it out loud...but i cun.....something is stopping me....i hope i could save this r/s.......maybe her feelings has already faded for me....n she didnt know about it....sigh....why....why must gals always do this to me.......why............sigh (heartbreaks)
