Im always the one at fault....why.....i gave in soo much...just soo much...but still i wasnt doing the right thing....ur words are hash....n cold.....u told me i was always the one saying u r bad all ur bad points.....think about it...who was the one tat keep telling me im in the wrg...tat ive got to changed n change n CHANGE~arghghhhh.....u say i dun care about u....is tat so? i didnt offer u to the doc ma? its always the day when we have fight....u go see doc...i wanna accompany u...u already went with ur friend...or alone....i did ask...but u didnt wan to..did i buy cough medicine for u?...im soo sad u know...it seems like im always the one at fault...im loaded with faults....sooo many of them..tat i dun think i could pay back for the rest of my life...how would i feel? ever thought of tat? i always lower dwn my pride to apologise to u..do u knpw how i feel? im a bung leh....i dun even need to lower my pride to do so lo....but because i know i love u too much...to let u go...im rough...tat was my fault...but im bigger size than u...when we were playing..i dunno how much strenght i put..but i know i hurt u...im sorry..and for the dinner thing...i know i should have ask u out to eat...but u cun even eat chicken..n i didnt know at first tat my daddy have the porriage..if i know earlier..i would have ask u out to eat..tat was my fault la ok..i felt really bad..im sorry....hai...im worried about ur safety...did i always let u go home soo late?i wun even wan anything to happen to u ..if anything happen to u..i would regret for the rest of my life..ever since ur mother argue with u tat day...u said u would have to go home at 11.30..did i let u go? its only sometimes i would wan u to be there longer...who doesnt wanan spend more time with their gf?i was nv hash with u at all lo......NEVER....i didnt used hash words....on u at all.....u said of ending this r/s on the last senetence on ur blog until like v easy like tat...do u know how hurt i am? sigh...things werent suppose to turn out this way....its really not this way...ive done soo much changes....didnt i? how many more u would wan me to change...isnt loving someone is loving his/her everything? i love everything of yours...but ask urself..do u truely love everything of mine...sigh..ive given u everything i could....everything....u wan time i gave u le...u wan to be loved..i also give u le...wat ever things u dun like me to do....i tried not to do....i changed for us...its not easy for someone to change u know...its really not easy....when ive been like tat for 20 yrs..but im changing myself for u.....dun tell me all the bad things i did le...i was nv good anyway...u always say im good to u..when i ask u am i better than all ur ex...am i really good to u? sigh..to all the things u said about me...i dun think im fit to be ur gf at all...im v dissapointed.....u make me felt as if im a freaking loser...im a worthless bung which no one else would wan......ive nth left...not even my pride...no more....my dear....step in my shoes n think...do u think u have hurt a bung;s heart...sigh..if u think im not worth ur love.....n im not good enough for u.....den tell me....babe..i would know wat im suppose to do...i would let u go....even if i cun bear to...how many times have u heard me flaring up? the biggest flare up i gave u was tat time..when i told u..tat i was always the one saying sorry...right? hai...i always told myself tat i would wan to spend the rest of my life with u...but i dun think u can take it now...let me ask u sth...if i was just the eugene tat u first know...no changes until now....would u love me? if u wun...den why love me at the first place..n if u would..den why complain now..n tell me all the faults i have did...sigh..am i really tat bad? am i not being a good gf after all...because of u..i could even kill myself...i know its stupid..but tat was the impact of u in my life...do u know...how many times i ask u to change for me? sigh...baby....nobody is perfect...remember tat..im not perfect..u either..i love u for who u are...n i hope u'll love me for who i am too....
