IM SAD~ im heart broken.....my heart aches sooo much....just soo much....suddenly i felt as if im the only one clapping in this r/s...sigh..why im i having this thoughts....she didnt msg me thw whole day agn...only one msg in the evening telling me she is busy n etc...tats why nv reply me....why? why do i feel soo sad.....because i felt like..im the only one excited about this r/s.....im showing actions...which i told her i would....but the sad thing is...i cun feel hers....i cun feel the love she gave me...i knw she is busy etc......i am too....but she would always say..working life n study life is very diff...i knw its different...but still im busy too....stayed in sch to do my project today...i drawed the most drawings in my life in a day....i draw 348 pieces of drawings....im busy too..but in the same time..i thought of her....did she think of me? sigh....I dunno......am i a fool? or i think i love her too much le....till i cun feel her love towards me....i got v v bad thoughts just now......im heartbroken...v v heart broken...even until now...i think she no longer love me tat much anymore...do u dear? why am i soo sad? ARGHHHHH Why??? i didnt wanna be soo sad...but i guess she affected me just now...was actually pissed when she didnt msg me the whole day..but just once in the evening...but after drawing..im tired...n i felt tat no point to argue...so i called her.....she is in town....i ask her why she didnt msg me the whole day...she said she was busy.....den we kept silent....den i ask her why...n she said i am silent too...n i said in a joking way...which we normally do..i said...i dun like u......den guess wat....she said...DUN LIKE DUN LIKE LO....this bang me....bang me str8 to my heart...im speechless....suddenly thought of all the things i did for her......n nowshe can say this to me.....how saddening is this.....im really sad...n heart broken...at tat moment...i dun feel love at all....i dun feel anything...i felt numb.....am i a fool to do all these to her? i love her....tats why im sad...im fucking sadddddddddddd....i love her soo much.....gave me everything i could....but wat i got back is all these....i might be thinking too much...am i? or is everything gonna reach the end......my fairy tale....can i keep it? i really wanna spend the rest of my life taking care of her...but will she wan me to tc of her for life? im trying...trying to be not tat sad....because i still have my thesis writing to do...but my tears has drop when i thought of wat she said to me.....it really drop.....im fucking sad~ LIFE SUXZ......
love hurts~Sobzzzzz (HEART BROKEN)
love hurts~Sobzzzzz (HEART BROKEN)