Finnsh sch at 11.30 today...went dwn town to get some art stuff.....was actually very tired..but still..plan to get something there as well...so just go...bought a bag...n something which i hope she would like......felt lonely dunno why.....like as if...there is something missing like tat....sigh....am i thinking too much? or wat...nights r lonely.....days r soo sad.......arghhh....just finnish my drawings......called her but she was on the other line...so might as well just let her continue with tat call.....do u miss me? i wonder.......dunno if one day ur feelings will fade for me anot......cos why cun i feel ur love towards me? sometime its soooooo strong.....but sometimes...i cun feel it at all.....hai....tell me wat to do...i really dunno...ppl say i slim dwn le...dunno weather its true or not...maybe too stress over studies...or wat.....starts to think slot lately.....soo lonely at night.......no one to talk to......had to force myself to sleep....arghhhh......but guess i was too tired....i fall asleep quite fast though...but yesterday night cun sleep.....u ppl knw why......didnt sleep at all lo....i knw i shouldnt think soooo much after all....cos wat is urs would always be urs....but i dun wanna lose her.....i really didnt want to...sigh...she ask me dun i beleive her tat she miss me as well? i said i dunno....cos i really dunnno.....saw too many wonderful couples in sch i suppose.....i everytime tell myself tat i have a wonderful gf who loves me like hell lot.....v v possesive....cos she loves me alot....but my gf is weird....can i say tat? she is really weird...sometimes she makes me love her like a mad dog.....n sometimes she just u knw.....kept silent......arghh....silence is a killer ppl....its freaking a killer...nobody can take it at all.....i think im really thinking toooo much...got to stop having all these thoughts.......fuck man....im going crazy sometimes...baby......plsssss do miss me......because u were all tat ive got......hugs tight....i dun wan any changes at alll....all i wan is you...you to be there with me...for now n for life.....hope things wun change n would get better...sigh...i love u lots....muackz...hope things would turn out well for u at work ya.....
