You know gal... when you say sometimes you don't know when your tears will stop flowing....i don't know either... i don't know when will i recover from this fall...that causes me to died instantly ... Sigh.. now the only thing i can do is to let my emotions run whenever it come.. i also dunno why i can't seem to let everything just go.... i don't know why even until now... it still seems like i'm somehow still faking my smile everywhere i go... sigh... will time really heal me? i often ask myself... and when i think about it... i just keep drowning myself with loads and loads of work... sigh... its not easy gal... i find myself soo tired..really so tired in times... but i can never stop.. because.. the minute i stop myself from getting busy... my mind would be flooded with the thought of
=Y.O.U= again.....heartaches.. seriously... i dare not even look at those things you have given to me... because im afraid of breaking down again n again...every time when you went away.. im soo afraid of loosing you..this is why i tried my very very best to give you what i really can..i realize i really gave you everything of mine.... including myself....because i lost myself when you walk out of my life on the 24th of April 2008....Sigh... i can no longer find back who i am before anymore...i know loving is easy... but forgetting is hard...its not something that can be done in 1 or 2 days... i dunno how long will i take.... i dunno how long will all these pain and sorrow go away.. so i guess the only thing i could do is to leave it to time... or perhaps... let someone else enter my life... tats what ppl always say.. in order to forget an old love of yours... you've got to find a new love... sigh... i dunno what to do....i miss holding your hands... looking at you and telling you how much i love you... but you took your love away from me.... and i can no longer do this anymore..it breaks my heart whenever i think about it... Sobz.. I guess i fell really hard this time... SIGH
All i did now is to look at those videos that we had together... esp when i gets emotional.. i can't help myself to make myself more hurtful to look at those photos and videos that we had... i miss you soo much you know... i really miss you so much.... "If" only you knew........Sobz.....
= I Dunno What I Am Holding On To... Sometimes..I Wish All These Isn't True...= =Tears...Heartaches=
=Y.O.U= again.....heartaches.. seriously... i dare not even look at those things you have given to me... because im afraid of breaking down again n again...every time when you went away.. im soo afraid of loosing you..this is why i tried my very very best to give you what i really can..i realize i really gave you everything of mine.... including myself....because i lost myself when you walk out of my life on the 24th of April 2008....Sigh... i can no longer find back who i am before anymore...i know loving is easy... but forgetting is hard...its not something that can be done in 1 or 2 days... i dunno how long will i take.... i dunno how long will all these pain and sorrow go away.. so i guess the only thing i could do is to leave it to time... or perhaps... let someone else enter my life... tats what ppl always say.. in order to forget an old love of yours... you've got to find a new love... sigh... i dunno what to do....i miss holding your hands... looking at you and telling you how much i love you... but you took your love away from me.... and i can no longer do this anymore..it breaks my heart whenever i think about it... Sobz.. I guess i fell really hard this time... SIGHAll i did now is to look at those videos that we had together... esp when i gets emotional.. i can't help myself to make myself more hurtful to look at those photos and videos that we had... i miss you soo much you know... i really miss you so much.... "If" only you knew........Sobz.....
= I Dunno What I Am Holding On To... Sometimes..I Wish All These Isn't True...= =Tears...Heartaches=