I sang the above song last night.... soo sad..... why must we be in this situation? why?
Went ktv with adrian marc n skye... actualy.. i read your blog le. 2 post i also seen le..... how come u change? and delete the previous one... u delete izzit because u patch with him le.. tats why? or izzit because you just didnt want me to read it.... i dunno.... i read ur blog in the morning... around 6 plus..because i didnt sleep after doing the art work... and i seriously dunno how to react...sigh...why gal? why leave me.. and in the end u feel this way... my heart aches... sigh... actually i wanted to call u sooo much just now.. when i am in the ktv.. but i didnt... sigh...
I fell asleep... leaving this post half written...so i shall continue from here...when i woke up... you were the first thing i see... because i left ur friendster pics on.... sigh... it was a picture taken at Genting.. while we were rolling the boat... I MISS YOU........Sigh...Sometimes i wonder.. why all these must happen.... if you wait for a little longer... just for me.... we wouldnt have be in this horrible situation... two months le... i had an emotional two months as well... have you ever tried waking up in the middle of the night in tears? Have you ever tried just keep working and working like a robot until one day you just collapse? have you ever tried drinking till dead drunk...but still waking up in the middle of the night.. and cry again..even when i go skateboarding...i cun seem to make myself stop skating....because i just feel like venting everything out at that moment...sigh... passing through your house... and all the memories came by one by one.. of me waiting for you there.... feeding you... giving you good bye kisses etc... sigh.... i misses you sooo much... but i know i couldnt have you anymore.. because you belong to somebody else...and you meet him everyday.....its until the extend that... i tell myself i have to stop imagining and stop thinking because it hurts and irritates me soooo much.....you know.... after the break up.. i cried sooo much... i cun get to see you... but i heard about you.. its always about you working with him... sigh.. although my heart fek=lt uncomfortable but i think of the brighter side as in, it should be good in a way.. because you got someone there to help u also...den you wun need to tired yourself....still got car...so u dun need to take bus... arghh.. i dunno why i must say all these... it feels sucky....sigh..
My dear you know... i use to tear soo much for you... till the extend that i don't know myself anymore... but eventually i guess i teared too much that.. tears dun seems to come out anymore... its terrible.. the feeling of you wanted to cry.. but you cun? it happens... tears will only come suddenly... and thats scary.. but relief me as well.. i told myself.. i have to stand up.. i have to move on with my life.. because you are no longer mine anymore... you are holding someone else hands already... sigh...actually.. i wanted to meet you so much... to see how would we react.. and how would we feel about each other... lets see ba... i'm concentrating on my career now... i really hope i could just get either one of the job... even if i cun... at least i tried.... i hope you are doing fine as well... must sleep ok? cannot dun sleep.. later not enough rest... den the nx day tired at work.. drink more water everytime ok? pats....
(i wanted to catch a movie... but i might be watching alone again... i wonder whether you would like to catch the movie with me...friday? sigh... i would be doing gallery sitters on friday evening till 8pm... in school... after that i would be free i guess... )