Looking at the msg...my heart suddenly stopped beating....i felt useless...now he is suffering...n i am at ktv..hereby.im full of regrets...becos of the music in the ktv was too loud...n i thought it was my mum who called me gonna nag me agn...i didnt bother to answer the bloody phone...n there..it rang once agn....after a few mins...i took alook at my phone..n i realise i made the biggest mistake in my life...for not answering...sigh...bro msg me..telling me..daddy fainted..and is now senting to tan tock seng hospital....at tat moment...my heart suddenly stopped..i called bro...n ask him where is he now...telling him i was having a ktv session..tats why,i didnt ans..i told my friends about it...n ran as fast as i could...when i was in the lift going dwn to take a cab, i could feel myself breathing sooo hard..towards the lift door...n once the lift door open..i run agn....without any thoughts, i jumped into a cab infront of me...n shouted tan tock seng hospital...but guess wat! he ask me to get out of the cab..n go to the first cab infront..i was soo fucking pissed at tat moment..i shouted at tat fucking taxi driver..i said, uncle! i said tan tock seng..my dad is in hospital...can u jsut drive! den he said agn asking me to go to the first cab...at tat point of time, i vented out my anger shouted really mad at him..i said uncle...now my dad is in the hospital...do u wanna leave anot? can u drive fast? dun waste my time!! n he got shock n drove me there...on the way there, he asked for my number...saying tat he scared tat the other taxi driver would complain him..so need my number to prove tat he was really rushing to the hospital...i was sooo dam fucking pissed tat moment.at the same time...so freaking worried...the minute i reach the hospital. i run n search for the emergency. and i got there..seeing my bro n mum..i ask them wat happen etc...mum said..dad wasnt feeling v well....he felt giddy...and when my mum reach home...my dad looked soo horrible...his face was so pale..n he ownself suggsted tat he needs to go hospital...he has been hiding things from us...the day before yesterday...watever come out from him...was black...soo black tat he himself knw tat there must be something wrg...but he didnt wanan scare mum...so he didnt mention anything until last night. bro walk him dwn to the carpark...n he could walk anymore...he fainted there...some kind ppl saw the scene upstairs their window, n came dwn to give my dad axe oil..but dad doesnt like axe oil...there was this malay guy who tried to help as well...n before the ambulance reach, dad said thank you to them...n he kind of pass out..we were soo afriad..daddy has stopped drinking for the past 1 mth plus.and from a fat man tat u ppl know....he became a man..with 4 packs on his stomach...which is reaching six packs. can u ppl imagine? i saw it in my own eyes...he was soo thin now...he exercise every single day..on the power rider.looking at him, with the oxygen tub in his nose, my heart aches...i cried on bro's shoulder...cos im scared...i really dun deny tat...i am afriad...i dun wanna lose daddy....i love him soo much....he doted me the most in the whole family...seeing him in this state...you ppl wun knw how i feel de......its like millions n millions of knief stabbing on me...sigh..when he was warded. we went to see him, his face was scary...soo pale..yellowish...green...i held his hands...n called..daddy~~he smiled..although i knw he wasnt really awake.mum,bro n i left the hospital around 5 plus...to let daddy rest. coming back today. today he was much better. they inserted one pack of blood into him, n his face color was turning back normal agn...blood pressure is normal as well...by tonight they r inserting one more...doc said, his stomach got 3 holes,ulcer...tats why eevrything comes out black...was actually blood...n if he didnt go to the hospital earlier, something worst might have happen.mummy went home early this afternoon, coming back at nite..she dint slp last night at all..n i was left alone with daddy. i let him sleep...n i sat right beside him...doc said tat he must stay in the hospital for atleast 5 days..n these days he must go for all sorts of check up..we went home around 10 plus...tomor gonna see dad agn...oh daddy...i miss your existance at home...sigh...i miss watching scv with u....i miss talking back to u...about those funny stuff...i miss singing ktv with u at hm....i simply missed everything daddy~ pls promise me...tat u would get well soon? i will be giving u all my support....i promise daddy...i dun wanna lose u....i love u soo much daddy....dear god, if u could hear me.....BLESS MY DADDY.....BLESS HIM WITH EVERYTHING U COULD..LET HIM BE SAFE..N SOUND...I LOVE MY MR TEO.....MR TEO!!!! MUST GET WELL K? HUGGIES TIGHT....MUACKZ....I LOVE YOU DADDY....sobbed
