First of all....Money...why r u soo important? when i have u...i have everything...i dun have to worry about this or tat...wat ever i wanna give...i give..watever i wan to get...i got it...sometimes i wonder...why must human survive with money...it can be soo wonderful..to have soo much money...but money has their bad points too...they r cruel...they make ppl turn their backs on their friends..they make ppl become greedy...they even make ppl die....sigh...
I was once a bung...who i can get anything i could...for my gal...or anyone...but now....i cun...i felt soo useless...i keep complaining to her..tat i was broke...i need to earn more money...i need to work hard...why? becos i wana give her wat she wants...even for her bday...i wanna make it soo perfect for her...even if its just once...she told me...i made her disappointed...i know..i really know...but do u think this is wat i wan? i know we dun really have time for each other now adays...we only met once or twice a week...i understand..tats why sometimes even if i cun wake up in the morning..i will try my v v best to make it up...so i could fetch her to work..but maybe...she dun understand...hai...am i really not good enough? have i change? you know wat blog...the min she step into the society to work...i felt like i became younger....as if...i dun have the stand for a bung anymore...cos i knw she entered the society first...n i am l,ike still studying....2 more yrs to go.....will she wait till the day? sigh.....i really hope so...myheart aches sooo much...whenever she got angry...i would be soo scared...soo afraid tat she would leave me...n whenever i see her..telling me wat she likes etc...u know...if it was the past..i woudl hae just got it for her..but now...i cun...i seriously cun...arghhhhhh.....am i a bung? i suddenly felt like MIA...until i got money le..den meet her...but i knw i couldnt..i love her alot...but i felt useless...i know i was in the wrg for the movie just now...although i do understand abit of the show...becos it was wat i kind of learn in sch...but she dun...n i shuld have just brought her home...if she want to...im selfish...its my fault...sigh....i hate it...soo freaking much...why argue on the end of the day? mr eugene...wat happen to u? why like tat? are u useless? are u not good enough for her? i dunno...but i knw if someday...im left with just one penny of my own...i would give it to her...n starve on myself...but she dun understand...does she? Suddenly...im lost.....i lost everything in me....i felt soo useless....i dun feel like a bung...i wan a good future...i wnana spend my future with her...i wanna support all her needs..but for now...its only just words...when? just when can i show it to her.....sobz.....2 yrs....u r long.........r u gona come? sigh.......i getting to hate myself even more now..........fuck u eugene teo....
I was once a bung...who i can get anything i could...for my gal...or anyone...but now....i cun...i felt soo useless...i keep complaining to her..tat i was broke...i need to earn more money...i need to work hard...why? becos i wana give her wat she wants...even for her bday...i wanna make it soo perfect for her...even if its just once...she told me...i made her disappointed...i know..i really know...but do u think this is wat i wan? i know we dun really have time for each other now adays...we only met once or twice a week...i understand..tats why sometimes even if i cun wake up in the morning..i will try my v v best to make it up...so i could fetch her to work..but maybe...she dun understand...hai...am i really not good enough? have i change? you know wat blog...the min she step into the society to work...i felt like i became younger....as if...i dun have the stand for a bung anymore...cos i knw she entered the society first...n i am l,ike still studying....2 more yrs to go.....will she wait till the day? sigh.....i really hope so...myheart aches sooo much...whenever she got angry...i would be soo scared...soo afraid tat she would leave me...n whenever i see her..telling me wat she likes etc...u know...if it was the past..i woudl hae just got it for her..but now...i cun...i seriously cun...arghhhhhh.....am i a bung? i suddenly felt like MIA...until i got money le..den meet her...but i knw i couldnt..i love her alot...but i felt useless...i know i was in the wrg for the movie just now...although i do understand abit of the show...becos it was wat i kind of learn in sch...but she dun...n i shuld have just brought her home...if she want to...im selfish...its my fault...sigh....i hate it...soo freaking much...why argue on the end of the day? mr eugene...wat happen to u? why like tat? are u useless? are u not good enough for her? i dunno...but i knw if someday...im left with just one penny of my own...i would give it to her...n starve on myself...but she dun understand...does she? Suddenly...im lost.....i lost everything in me....i felt soo useless....i dun feel like a bung...i wan a good future...i wnana spend my future with her...i wanna support all her needs..but for now...its only just words...when? just when can i show it to her.....sobz.....2 yrs....u r long.........r u gona come? sigh.......i getting to hate myself even more now..........fuck u eugene teo....