Sometimes i really wonder...will i have this love forever? sigh....told myself not t think about it...but this qns always pops on my mind...i guess i love her too much le...so the qns in my mind just keep popping out...i must have confidence in myself...she say she loves me de....so nth would change de right? she did as me once...(Do i think we r still suitable to be together?) At tat moment...i broke dwn...i thought she dun wan me le...hai..but no matter how tired i am..i continued to finnish up the present i wanted to do for her...n i got her back in my arms agn...im not being posessive...i dun wan to as well....but i guess i cun afford to lose this gal....this love of my life....I dun wan her to leave me...she say she would be a fool if she would decide to leave me..im glad she said tat..we have been through so much ups n dwns together...n i really dun wan to see her walking out of my life...i may not be perfect...but i hope i would be perfect for her...to spend her life with me...just with me alone....whenever she told me..she dun feel like working...my heart aches...just soo much..i dunno wat to do or say...the only thing i could say is..to console her...telling her...it would soon be over...ask her to bear with it...wait for me to support her when im working...but..i knw...i knw it takes quite long...it would be in 2 yrs time...sigh...whenever she told me tat she dun feel like working...ask me to support her..etc....i just felt soo useless at the time being..i felt tat i cun give her wat she wants now...n tat she have to work hard to get wat she really wants...i dun like tat kind of feeling at all...i felt so useless...sometimes i really blame myself..why? just why must i waste those 2 yrs not studying...if i could....i would have grad by now...n i would be able to support her now...n not seeing her like tat...suffering from the days at work...i love her sooo much...just soo much..tat whenever she whine..whenever she cries..my heartaches into a m million pieces...ppl often told me..im scared of my wife etc....wat kind of bung am i? I can tell u ppl...Im not scared of my wife...infact...I JUST LOVE HER TOO MUCH....tat wat ever she wants..i would try to give in to her..i just dun wan her to get upset..becos maybe for anyone i would not have done this...but to her...I WOULD.....becos she just meant so much....just sooo much to me...i know her working life is stress...n etc...so i doesnt blame her for throwing her temper..or anything..dear..becos there is only one thing u have to know.....i done all these things through out the yrs is becos...I REALLY LOVE YOU....I LOVE U TOO MUCH THAT I CUN BARE TO SEE U CRY...TO SEE U UPSET..Im really hoping one day...just one day...i could see u walking towards me with a smile..telling me...I DO.....I love you Kareen Tan......i would nv marry anyone else but You...
