My mood has been bad to worst these days.....dunno wats wrg with me...dunno wat am i thinking about....not thinking str8 at all...i flare up at almost everyone tat come close to me....either i flare up..or i change to another person i guess....sigh...duno wats wrg with myself either...starting to think tat maybe im really under going depression mode....cos i find myself having no life at all...sigh...ppl say its mood swing......its the monthly thing...but haven even reach the date line yet...how can it be? sigh.....i can look at something..n stare at it for a few mins......without even blinking...but i dun even know wat i was thinking.....tell me..wats wrg with me? i really dunno....hai...i made my dearest wife think tat i change to another person...sigh..sorry dear...i didnt meant it...i flare up at both of my parents....when they were actually nice to me...omg...wats wrg....arghhhh...after watching the dvd (zai shou yi ci wo ai ni) i feel tat life is actually v v short....n if we dun treasure it...we would be left with nothing..nothing at all...looking at how andy lau look after his wife in tat show...i feel sooooo heart breaking...when the wife was gone in the end....cried like hell pls...hai...i miss my wife too....i miss her soo much......im sorry for how i treated her tat day...sigh....but wat has happen to me? sigh...today i thought of meeting her for dinner...but she say she would be out with her friends...its alright...i dun feel angry at all..although i was there already...in fact i am glad she did spend some time with her friend...even if she was angry with me...sigh...in the end..i went to walk all around town....all by myself....goodness....dunno wat im thinking about...went to cut my hair...n i think the person can see tat im dam moody...cos i didnt talk much...just let them wash my hair n cut my hair...n i left without a word...goodness...wat a mood....i control myself....i dun wanan be worst...s i didnt took up alcohol today....which i really feel like...but i dun wan...i need to be alert when my wife calls me later...n i dun wanna get worst...soo many ppl call me out today...but i rejected...although timmy ask me out for a drink n i did agree..but in the end..i still didnt went..i really cun drink la...it would make me worst...so might as well control myself right? dear...why u haven call me? sigh.....hope she's not angry anymore....n for me myself....i really hope i would be fine.....becos i wanan be fine.....i dun wanna wait till the last min...becos it might be too late....
