After so many nights of misery...and after last night,i relised i must be strong...even if she is no longer here anymore...i know i must stand up..on my OWN..cos there is no point holding on some one..whose feelings had already faded...although i know it hurts but i still have to be strong..i cun give myself up,when i knw tat those friends who r there for me..didnt give me up at all.I'm glad..really really glad to have them around with me...THANK YOU..
Loving someone,doesnt mean tat we have to have them by our side...even if its in our heart...its enough.I know i didnt wanna give up...but wat can i do now?I know i want her so much...,so much to come back to me..but i dun want her to come back to me because she didnt wanna see me hurting like tat...even if she's coming back,i want her to love me...n really love me..then come back..i dun need a cover...wat i want is heart....
If she's mine....no matter wat,she'll be mine again....like wat my bud says...i know i want her to be happy....her happiness...will be mine too....Thank you for those happy memories....it will just be kept in my heart...i know its hurting...but it hurts those ppl who r there for me more....i know...i understand...letting go is not easy...but i'll try...no matter wat...i dun want you to affect my studies..i dun want u to affect my everything...it has not been me these few days...its not easy,cos i've felt some how tat i've losted something v v important...So many things went through my mind...really alot..its just like a dream,its like you were in my arms yesterday..n now..i'm just left alone...Many ppl didnt wanna see me this way,n i knw..you wun want too...i will be strong...i will...trust me...even if i've fallen on to the ground...n i'm back to square 1,i will still pull myself up....cos i knw,if i dun..i'm just a worthless bung....and my life will be just gone...
Maybe,i will be drinking still...just let me be...cos you wun know whether its a way for me to feel happy...i way to give all my stress n pain out...but i promise i wun hurt myself anymore...
I'm numb.....i'm back to square 1....but i wun give myself up...maybe u'll always be the pain inside me...i'll try...i'll really try my v v best to walk out of it....2yrs..3days...not easy u knw?after all we've been through...etc..you r the one i gave my heart to...n you are also the one tat took it away from me...i dun blame you...n i wun hate you for sure...feelings comes n goes like tat...Its okie...no matter how hurting i am..i wun want you to feel the same way....cos your happiness is mine too..Atleast i must be glad tat...you were onces mine.....you once belonged to me...it hurts to type out the ONCES word...but..tats the fact...right?Take care of urself gal.....cos i wun be there taking good care for u le...but i'll always be here when ever u need me...k?
And lastly,Friends tat r out there....A BIG THANK YOU....i know u ppl cares for me...n didnt wanna see me so sad anymore....If you ppl trust me,i promise..i will walked out of these..pain/sorrows....i will get up on my OWN...i dun wanna see u ppl so worried....i'm glad..v v glad to have u ppl around me...thanks you again....i will always be there for u ppl too..until the end of time...k?
Leaving you is painful....but i've got to moved on........Loving you always....#16 1 #10
Loving someone,doesnt mean tat we have to have them by our side...even if its in our heart...its enough.I know i didnt wanna give up...but wat can i do now?I know i want her so much...,so much to come back to me..but i dun want her to come back to me because she didnt wanna see me hurting like tat...even if she's coming back,i want her to love me...n really love me..then come back..i dun need a cover...wat i want is heart....
If she's mine....no matter wat,she'll be mine again....like wat my bud says...i know i want her to be happy....her happiness...will be mine too....Thank you for those happy memories....it will just be kept in my heart...i know its hurting...but it hurts those ppl who r there for me more....i know...i understand...letting go is not easy...but i'll try...no matter wat...i dun want you to affect my studies..i dun want u to affect my everything...it has not been me these few days...its not easy,cos i've felt some how tat i've losted something v v important...So many things went through my mind...really alot..its just like a dream,its like you were in my arms yesterday..n now..i'm just left alone...Many ppl didnt wanna see me this way,n i knw..you wun want too...i will be strong...i will...trust me...even if i've fallen on to the ground...n i'm back to square 1,i will still pull myself up....cos i knw,if i dun..i'm just a worthless bung....and my life will be just gone...
Maybe,i will be drinking still...just let me be...cos you wun know whether its a way for me to feel happy...i way to give all my stress n pain out...but i promise i wun hurt myself anymore...
I'm numb.....i'm back to square 1....but i wun give myself up...maybe u'll always be the pain inside me...i'll try...i'll really try my v v best to walk out of it....2yrs..3days...not easy u knw?after all we've been through...etc..you r the one i gave my heart to...n you are also the one tat took it away from me...i dun blame you...n i wun hate you for sure...feelings comes n goes like tat...Its okie...no matter how hurting i am..i wun want you to feel the same way....cos your happiness is mine too..Atleast i must be glad tat...you were onces mine.....you once belonged to me...it hurts to type out the ONCES word...but..tats the fact...right?Take care of urself gal.....cos i wun be there taking good care for u le...but i'll always be here when ever u need me...k?
And lastly,Friends tat r out there....A BIG THANK YOU....i know u ppl cares for me...n didnt wanna see me so sad anymore....If you ppl trust me,i promise..i will walked out of these..pain/sorrows....i will get up on my OWN...i dun wanna see u ppl so worried....i'm glad..v v glad to have u ppl around me...thanks you again....i will always be there for u ppl too..until the end of time...k?
Leaving you is painful....but i've got to moved on........Loving you always....#16 1 #10